I had a glass of wine And I was tempted to reach for another. Never have I done this; I don’t know what it is I want to drown in the Sorrowful river. I lied to myself As I lied to you Saying you’re my friend A mate for my soul A companion till the end. After those horrific words That escaped your metallic mouth With no emotion in your face There is one thing, And one thing only That I think of you: You repel me. You repel me Your appearance repels me Your voice repels me Your way of speaking; That pretentious wording As if I am a fool Who doesn’t know a thing – Oh how much it repels me. The truth is; you are foolish. You are a conformist. You are nothing but A hateful sheep That pretends to be An intelligent wolf With that way of attacking. That repels me more than Anything ever has. You used me, and that repels me. Your letters That were once on my walls Are long lost; Their words repelled me. Those dishonest words You wrote with gritted teeth. Your name repels me. Your name is that of an angel But it means a devil to me And that repels me.